another dream.....

     It seems that my psychological life is becoming as paramount as the physical..which is steady but by no means perfect....

     I just had a dream that blew my socks off. In this dream, i am laid off by my boss, who is also my older brother. Both of these pieces are true in the real realm. Rick  was my last employer when all this physical shite went down and changed my life....about 4 years ago.

     In the parts that I remember, Rick hires a bunch of people while I am holding a broom. We look at each other and shrug our shoulders as we know it's time for me to go. I never had such a coming to Jesus moment.....my sicknesses pulled me of the workfloor to the sidelines  ....in the background plays Jungleland....I guess as the hunter becomes the hunted.....

     The next scene gives me chills as Rick and the rest of the company follow me out to my car in a seemingly endless walk as seemingly thousands of people wish me well. Maybe representing all the people I have seen in 31 plus years of working...i was and am not much for goodbyes....i love people in a wallflower sit in the back kind of way ......goodbye is overrated and hugs are underrated.  This dream is sad ...  full of goodbyes and all the bullshit I hate.

     I get the feel that moving on is impossible and a chore.  For the record Rick and Kathy have been a pillar of support for me both since 2015 and before. As a man of business I was a frustrated teacher.....should have acted in that urge years ago.....never too late down here in Jungleland.....

     Other pieces fly thro like wisps in a tornado......Dototheeeeee!  You have the basis  Willy Loman meets...well...me. A man not giving in or giving up, who leans on social media, music and the kindness if others and a cool wife and kids to cobble together a unconventional but cool life....

     Tonight in jungleland......